With a little color moisturizer
She can hide it all
The pain, the scars, the tears
But not completely
She throws on some concealer
Smiles and thinks to herself that for once
She passes as pretty
To fully covert her intelligence
She uses her first layer of foundation
She adds on a second layer to fully cover up the fact
She’s an outsider
She blends down the layers and begins to transform into the person
They want her to be
She adds on her blush to show the world a clown
But they seem to find her pretty.
She applies her first layer of eye shadow
A light color to show the fear she vows never to seep through
Then a darker shade to hide the evidence
That proves her soul is bruised
Then the darkest to hide the demons
That within her mind they cruise
She applies her eyeliner
With each stroke of the dripping marker
Her inner self starts to show
The one filled with hopes
The one filled with dreams
The one who keeps fighting
The one who still screams
“Let me go. Let me go. Let me go.
Let the light shine upon me
Don’t cover me up mea culpa
Let me go. Let me go. Let me free.”
She screams in so many languages
Hoping someday someone will find her
And let her know that it’s going to be okay
Things will never be what they were
She applies her mascara
Thick and black
And starts deep within the mirror
At a person staring back
Behind it all, beyond the make-up
She sees an ambitious girl
One so full of life
One so full of joy
One that’s ready to take on the world
She seems so real with a face so pure
No one imagines the adversities
One girl could ever endure
But just like you she faces the world
Full of bullies. Full of hatred. Full of lies.
Sometimes it even gets so bad that we don’t even see
That at the end of the day underneath it all
It’s the one and only me
I cover it up
And add on a smile
And bury myself way deep inside
Underneath it all.
Underneath it all.
Underneath it all.
Underneath it all I hide