The thought of deception that utter the thought of you,

That you'll never f*cking owe what is due,

Crooked thoughts and selfish acts, 

Don't for a second believe that we've forgotten about your souless, loveless contracts,

Material things you so greedily stole, 

But those things will never make you feel whole, 

That's why it is easy for us,

To let go, we won't make a fuss, 

Over lost treasures you took, 

For the sake of our sanity we can overlook, 

But we will never forget your twisted truths, 

Disrepecting the dead as you sat there with your posioned youths, 

They say the rotten apple falls from the same tree,

You've proven that we can all see,

And yes it is me who so passionately hates you,

Wishing that karma turn your days blue,

Because those things you wanted, 

Are lost in the memories and changed with a lack of care you plotted,

Alas our last words with the man you call father and I call dad,

Were is those withered chairs and it makes me mad,

or sad, 

I'm not sure which one, 

But it feels like hatred and ugly tears cause me to become undone, 

It is here that I forgive you,

For everything you've done,

But I'll never forget you,

And every selfish battle you've won,

I know the ugly you wear on the outside,

Just as much as you carry on the inside,

Will one day be the cause of your fall, 

And I can smile with the memories I recall, 

But it won't be me who pins your backs to the wall,

For we all wither one day,

And it will peacefull take those chairs away. 

 

In Loving Memory of Randy M. 

Happy Anniversary, thank you for being my dad when I didn't have one. 

I hope you considered me one of your daughters because I don't think anyone

else did. What happened between you and my mom at the end... I'm glad she was there

in your time of need, even when no one else was. She misses you a lot, and I am

mad at what your family has done to her. But I'm trying hard to move passed that.

She deserved better. 

I want you to know that I have a son now. He just turned one. I want to inspire him

to travel the world. Learn about life and learn how to let go. I wish nothing but happiness

for him. 

I'm so sorry it took me so long to talk to you, but you know me. I'm the quiet one and so 

were you. Maybe that's why it felt so easy to talk to you when we did. We didn't have to

say anything. 

You were my dad for a long time. 

I miss you and I wish sometimes that I had something of yours to remember you.

Can you believe no one asked me? Haha. I mean it doesn't matter, but still. 

I am trying to make a career out of writing like you said I could and I am going

to travel more. I promise. 

I'm going to talk Kelvin into going on a bike trail soon. We will see if I can

keep on the bike this time. Haha. 

I miss you. 

-Love your daughter, Lydia.