She holds her up

Shows her confidence with a smile

Trying not to show the pain

From memories that won't go away

She tries but she can't,

So she goes on 

Looking for something to fill the viod,

Something she can touch and feel it's touch back

A person,

But here comes vulnerability

Wanting to hear his heartbeat

She tries so hard but she can't,

So she pulls out paper and pen then begins

Tears turing into words 

Words flowing like a waterfall

On that paper of which she writes

She tries so hard but she can't,

It's hard for her to talk about how she feels

But she finally lets the words fly, 

Like a bird free from captivity

"I want to feel his touch,

I wan to smell his cologne

Hear his voice

See his smile"

She tries so hard but she can't,

Hold back her tears any longer

Streaming down her face

Her heart begins to race, 

What is this feeling ?

What is happening ?

Why is this happening ?

This, this yearning

Yearning for what ?

For love 

This need for love is slowly breaking her down 

To a place where the real her can't be found

Only a facade

She tries so hard but she can't,

But she puts her thoughts away

For the time being

Going back to her daily routine, 

And tomorrow she'll come back

And in that notebook bound

She will write them down.