Waisting time trying to get the thought of you out of my mind , where were you when I spend my whole life dying , little by little . I'm stuck tryna rewind , to the memories where it skips me from crying , favored them moments like it was keeping me together , acting going on like everything was all better , said things I hope you fucking remember , it's eating me up that I got to grow up just to keep us from not falling away from one another , I'm sorry that's not the word I should use when you left me far away to be with your other . Can't be trusted I was betrayed by someone I considered as my brother .