Trauma
I was seventeen years old
I thought I had it all figured out
I was seventeen years old
I didn’t know what life was about
I was seventeen years old
Always taking the easy way out
I was seventeen years old
Thinking someday i'm gunna’ make it out.
I never listened to my parents,
I never did the right thing,
Til’ one day I woke up
And I began to question everything.
I began to blame myself
For the position I was in
All alone in a room,
Walking back and forth,
Not knowing what else to do.
I heard every judgement
I felt all the pain
Then, all at once
I felt my entire family’s pain
I asked myself, “What have I done with my life?”
I questioned myself, “Do I want to be done?”
I told myself, “You are far from done”
And realized, it had just begun
I had been living with fear,
I had been living with failure,
Then I decided it was time
To start thinking of others
That’s when life finally made sense
That’s when I could stop playing pretend,
When I stopped hearing people’s thoughts
And started fixing what was within
I had always thought about myself
But the moment I felt that pain
I knew in my heart that it was my job
To lift that pain off of others.