I lied every time I said I'd never leave
Then again so did she
But now she's happier without me
And I'm still struggling to find a reason.
A reason to live, a reason to smile,
A reason to find hope for at least a short while.
But her love for me has died,
My hope dying with it.
And believe me I have tried,
To take life and just live it.
Yet how can I without any hope
See without her I just can't cope.
I tried to move on but to no avail,
Can't make it to shore without wind in the sail.
Now I'm stranded at sea
Alone and in pain
While she trades her love for me
With a feeling of disdain.
I wish I could go back,
I wish I could change,
Change all the facts
Before becoming estranged.
I'm separated from life
With nowhere to go.
Suffering in strife
If she could just know.
But I know there's not a chance
In changing her mind
I can try to make recompense
But I'll just waste my time.
So time I do waste,
Since there's nothing else I can do
But I must make haste
As she's already found someone new.
Yet I don't even know if that's the case
None of it could be real, it could all be lies,
This all started with a rumor in the first place
To come across another should be no surprise.
How shall I keep living everyday like I'm uncertain
Of what I will find sitting behind the curtain
It will never be pleasant only full of pain,
I can't see any way out where I get to gain.
Will I ever find out, will I ever move on
Or will I continue to find doubt in each new coming dawn?
For though sunrise is so beautiful it just reminds me about her
No, I think I'll keep on holding, yes of that I'm pretty sure.
I will remain loyal to her when to me she is not
And remember all the times she has so easily forgot.
Why does the "right thing" seem to be so wrong?
By the time I change my mind will it have been too long?