race me hearts and blow my tears

feelings blurred and vision steered.

Palms give out hot warm sweat

while my mind turns into a frenzy of a loves last regret

My stomach turns sideways and my nails get to splitting

the uneasy balance when my nerves get to jilting

flashbacks of that day

that day that she came

the day that my trust,, was no longer one sane

the day you killed me

and reborned me again

the day when you stole from me, my unloaded gun

the day when my heart stopped beating for you

the day when my mind could not stomach the news

the day when I saw her was the day of days

each step she taking was a blister of pain

to see her smiling with you in tow

was the day when I knew your mind was a go

she played me

you played me

and still I stayed

is this really love,

or a treacherous game>

is this the spell given to romeo and Juliette

the same potent drug which drove them into the ground

or is this the love on t.,v

nothing real, nothing found

when will love find me

like I find love

when will this curse be lifted

like the patch to a drug

when will she stop

making her way in

when will I be enough to bless his godly sins

when will the pain stop

when will my tear ducts dry

when will my pain hault itself and mist the horizon

will she stop

will he play

will I keep finding out

this dangerous way

will he own it

these games that he play

or will he delay

the outcomes of his ways

will she stop at nothing

will I ever get my peace

to be beside the man

my body so needs

AND WHEN WILL BE MY TIME

TO LIE AND CHEAT

TO SMOTHER HIS NECK

LIKE A VINE TO A TREE

TO DELIVER THE MESSAGE I HAVE SO BRUTALLY BEEN GIVEN

LIKE FIRE TO MY HANDS

COUNTLESS RIDES I HAVE DRIVEN

WHEN WILL MY TIME BE

TO HURT AND TO SMILE

TO SLUMBER EACH NIGHT

NO GUILTY THOUGHTS A'TRIAL

TO KILL TRUST AND KEEP IT DOWN WITH INSECTICIDAL DEEDS

WILL MY TIME EVER COME TO KNOCK PURITY OFF ITS RING

WILL MY TIME EVER COME TO INSERT VENOM AND WATCH HIM BLEED