I sit up, awake

Unable to sleep just yet..

"We're over. He never loved me - Forget about him
What should I cook or drink  cut  draw  play watch to pass the time?"

I'll just go lay down and try to close my eyes.

"I wonder how my friends are doing right now...maybe I should call or text them
How is he doing? Does he remember that I cared?"

Maybe I should crack a window... turn the pillow over to sleep on the colder side..

"Hmmm.. my cousins were looking for me on Zoom for game night. I'll join them next time
Looks like work won't be open for another 3 weeks - will we be laid off able to work again?"

Music might help - let's open Spotify to play Calming Piano

"My hair won't stop falling out I'm Ugly My teeth are crooked I'm Ugly I'm overweight I'm Ugly 
What did you want to do with your life? I'm failing and I don't know what I want anymore"

Duvet or no duvet? Should I turn down the thermostat? Maybe I should just

"Sleep"