Sweaty palmsConstraints all on my armsBlindfolded Hearing opinions of minutes soon to comeThe crowd calmsThe administer clears his throat *clears throat*Pulled out a yellow paper and spokeThe officer put out his smoke , Then I heard the warden say , It is to my witness that this man is gonna die today I took a deep breathThought to myselfLord I know I'm wrong , but if you hear me I could use ya helpA weary cry The witnesses all mutterEgging the disturbance the lady began to stutter Staggering through the aisles Chairs clanging in the clutterShe took a breathThey all took a step into a huddleSuspense filled the roomEverybody gave a earThe lady slurred her name But her business she stated clear"7 years" , she proclaimed Pointed a finger ,  in its aimWas me Sustained  in disbeliefThe pain in her voice Became relevant to my defeatIn repeat went the evidence in my mindHopping back and forth between reasoning and oblige I was blind , filling her every lineWid pictures in my head Giving images to my mindAnd overtime , I put a face wid her miseryCrying out to God knowing he still ain't hearing meShe spitting on my face Smelled liquor from her seatShe had been beat Listening to rain Middle of the night Looking to ease her painFrom the window pane She say he always used to sleep deaShadows in the night from da lights he put upin his ear A gun and some cash was found upin his gearOn the 2nd Saturday her man disappearedI was wid Will , shooting dice wid his uncle , and his cousin BillChilling , smoking purpSide betting , on the phoneTalkin prices wid Jimmy He wanna score a whole zoneLook just bring 125 , and it's good I could match dat10-4 big bruddaYou da jays I'm da SnapBack Looked over my shoulder Bill klutching got it snapped backPut it in Ronny face like get outta place you could get cha neck snapped backNobody moved Everybody was cautiousSomebody jacked Bill And he wasn't taking no losses Arguing over numbersBill just lemme roll againHollin you trippin  billy you only get the 10Tellem Rooster , didn't you bet the 8?When I rolled 6 , didn't you bet the 8?Scratched my head in disposition , Ronny I was on da phoneJust lettem roll it over , he prolly had counted wrongNo ima get my money or you just won't make it homeI was side betting How you throw me in da cross ?Mad , waving yo pistol cause yo broke tail lossYo issue wid lit Ronny Boy dont get cha salad tossedYou grew up wid all bruddas You know what my ppl boutChill , what's going on mama screaming from da houseBill put down da gun Baby we could talk it out Shots started firingHe wastede Ronny firstPut a hole up in his chestI seen it bleeding through his shirt As he relifted his weapon I hit em den I tackled himTook da gun out his handGot up and started capping himHeard my mama scream Call da ppl So I fled da scene Grabbed the money put it in the pocket of my bloody jeansDrove hours to dump the gun Police thought it was a drive by Cold case Opened back up July 2009 Got a call from mamaShe say that the ppl naggin herComin everyday lookin for business just to ask her forDon't change the story Tellem everything cool , I got a job at the plant , and I'm lookin forward to school You know I got chu , I'm yo only real friendMama you know I know , eversince drakey hit da penOh yeah , he sent a letter , go ahead pick up a pen ,Ima call you if they come back over snooping roun againBetHung up the phone at 11:35On da way to score some zoes from a youngin name TyI met em at McDonalds He oredered a small fryPut his Ruger on his lapAnd proceeded on with the buyI undered him the moneyInquired bout the supplyHe got up from the booth Looked left and winked his eyeI uped my rod and walked behind emPut the tool to his backSwear to God if you scheming Ima lay ya down flat He started to laugh turned around and tipped his hatClick clack boom All his brains went splat I tried to dig out A lady caught me in my tracks Wid a gun up to my head Guided my hands behind my backThrew me in a car windows tinted painted all black7 years ago That's when it all came backRonny had a cousin name GavenDey call em GuyDoing 10 upin Angola He twin to da youngin TyDat 2nd Saturday Me and Ronny was pose to dieMe and Gaven fell out over connecting wid supplyGaven got pulled overHe thought we set him upRonny gave em keys to his ole lady Angel truckThey got into it later him and Angel had broke upshe said the truck was stolenAnd Gaven got hemmed upAngel tried to grab me The officer ran overGrabbed her by her arm and then took her by her shoulderTears falling from my eyesHoping I die a soldierHearing Angel screamLord please make him over7 years ago He was trippin he wasn't soberHe wouldn't have pulled da trigga if he knew about the Her voice fades Exiting the premises Pondering in my mind what could finish off her sentencesI never understood the real meaning of innocence Angels are never angelsMake up covers all their blemishes We all got a  demon Waiting , active or dormantJust like we got a purposeChosen for us or appointedNever got to see mine Mama said I was anointed Funny now how I'm thinking I coulda ended my life10 years ago I put my neck up to a knife But God started talking and shot me some kinda light Though I was living wrongI was tryna live rightBut here I am today Strapped down to a chairSteady talkin to God Beseeching him for his earIon feel his presence But I'm praying dat he hereSober , cold , and lonely Were the nights upin cellDey wanna put me in the ground I was more miserable thereStomach up to heavenIronic that I'm in hellThe doctor lifts up my sleeveLast breath I inhaleLooking over my lifeAnd what ended me up in jailThinking bout my mama and youngest brother KardellThe minister said a prayerFacetiously wish me wellOn my journey to hellClosing my eyes wishing God a caught me fo I fellI repent The last words to break the seal of my lipsThe needle broke my skinClenched jawsFeeling the repercussions of my sin Mad that I left so much business w/o a endBut they ain't understandAll I needed was a friendNow I'm up in heaven wit Ronny watching over all of my kinThe only difference between death by lethal injection and the pen