Teary-Eyed Loser
My Dearest, Scott,
I knew your deepest secrets before you told them to me
Your eyes told me everything you wouldn't.
I traced every detail of your face a hundred times over
99 was not enough.
I held you in my arms and wept
A moment could have never been so perfect.
I wrote your name on my wrist
My heart doesn’t beat the same without you.
I wrote twenty love letters you might never read
Does this mark the twenty-first?
I snapped a picture of you while you slept
You looked best when you were at peace.
I told you to kiss me and I regretted it
You did exactly as I said, and
I was angry
Because I loved you so much it hurt.
"Do the stars even move? Do they ever cross?
Surely they have crossed for us?" I thought.
I could not have been more wrong
I was overcome by the waves of your hair
They fell like blankets over your forehead and onto mine.
I would have shouted in every hall of every building
The world would have rejoiced at my shouting
You waded in my arms
The warmest that will ever hold you
You wrote your own name on my heart
Because it washed off of my wrist
You read me one paragraph and I was in Love
But you were not with me
Your voice is the sweetest sound I have ever heard
I slept with my heart in your hands
I trusted you to protect it
You kissed me
I told you to
Afterwards
You told me you loved
It might have been true
Once.
Your “Teary-eyed Loser,”
David