I've spent the better years of my life

Running

From you;

The woman who everyday

Ripped

My heart from my chest and

Ate it like a mid-day snack.

Because my heart could never fulfill the

Hateful hunger that you called love.

 

And the fear that you created

Would forever haunt my mind.

A ten year old with 

Abandonment issues

Would become a twenty year old

Who abandons

Love on sight

Out of fear

that love

Would look like a version of you.

 

Because when you'd return,

After weeks of

Disappearances, 

You'd never greet me with words.

Instead, 

You'd rip out my heart and

Season it with the tears that

You made me cry from the

Constant insults and displeasure of my existence.

 

I spent years fearing you

And now, 

As I live with a 

Thickening shadow across my back

I tell you no more,

And I return my half eaten heart to my chest.

 

No more

Fears or tears 

Will go to the woman

Who thought and

Taught that real love was fear.