from the time i opened my eyes

 

the fear crocheted my stomach

 

blinding as fireflies

 

deep as the Potomac

 

the what-ifs ate me alive

 

on the surface you wouldn't see

 

how ever will i survive

 

if fear just wants to kill me

 

once there's no turning back

 

trust me i've tried and failed

 

my mind's somewhere off track

 

common sense is to no avail

 

ive convinced myself the lies

 

i ruined the chance to breathe

 

yet the plane never nosedives

 

the fear begins to seethe

 

oceans blue as summer sky

 

cities lit up as christmas

 

i cannot and will not lie

 

i was going to miss this

 

the fear and i have landed

 

i want to fly again

 

now i will understand it

 

i dont have to pretend

 

since then i've lost my count

 

our flights take off year round

 

ignore the great amount

 

i never touch the ground

 

fear gave up her gun

 

and tossed away her knife

 

she's somewhere on the run

 

away from my new life

 

i fall asleep and dream

 

or watch life down below

 

at once i'd want to scream

 

but now i only grow