I feel like I’m slowly dying

I’m drowning myself with out even trying

people see

but they don't or they can’t help me

in a battle against myself

a fight that I feel myself losing

a struggle that feels like a strangle

can’t catch my breathe

can’t wash away my tears

I’m here in fear

hiding

dying

slowly with each running thought

frozen in death 

by fear

but heart won’t stop beating

still raining

the adrenaline

my poison

fight and flight

a paradox of me

slowing

hiding 

while I’m dying

my own earthquake

my own tornado

my own volcano

my own tsunami

shaking me

spinning me

scorching me

soaking me 

in tears 

a mugger or mother nature

will be the death me

a murder by me 

but not a suicide

I suffer with anxiety

but I do not let it define me

I am a mystery

Im an unsolved puzzle

I am still finding myself

without loosing myself

I am in search of who I am meant to be

free from anxiety

I am a fighter

And I will be a 

SURVIVOR