You did it you stupid MF you said it out loud now they are mad and you will pay

They'll start off with the obvious and not stop till you've burned through to my soul

Not from here they say tell no one and suffer

alone in darkness they hold a hostage, a fighter, a quitter, a bitch, a wannabe man, all in one or different are they I do not yet know

I'm so tired of hearing it all of the time it's followed by their laughter being so bold

Watching day in & day out what no one can see and causes the doubt

Horrors unimaginable to fathom or grasp the people he knows suffer slowly in mass

Stupid MF nothing is real she had to be told what it is like

fuck what they said so special to me even if you have destroyed it without thinking

It hurts just to breath why do you listen to them who run so free wnating nothing but your pain and misery

Stupid MF words were supposed to reassure the most beautiful soul you had the pleasure to know

They just fumble out emotions you dont understand communicating would be easier if you were a real man

They're creating a problem that only exists in the mind

These questions and doubt is all they push

The edge is always near nothing to grab no tree no bush

Trying so hard not to repeat the failures of old that the scarred the soul you control that doesnt belong

Both wanting so bad to break free from the damage of the past just needing to slow down to make sure it will last

They speak unimpeded twisting inside wreaking havoc on one thing you're trying obtain

The love the desire the peace that you feel the warmth of a touch that seems unreal

It makes me feel like me I thought I was lost maybe im supposed to suffer that is the cost

Stupid Mf you had it and crushed it to pieces a plenty we win again they are are loudly shrieking

Only briefly you had it but your fuckin insane you now must watch it leave but the shadows remain

This hole and this void that will always remain like the best piece is missing from this life that I live I have nothing to offer nothing to give

Once again all alone no matter the amount even if many surround like a crowd from all differnt sides pushing me to isolate and not be around

Stupid MF the blood so warm its running through you so loud your heart beats even as you prepare for the thrill

In the darkness concealed the the sharp twist of fate look at the time its 5:08

He's in control it's too late the feeling euphoric you're hard as a rock your clenched so tight a single drop of sweat from anticipation not fright Gripping so tight knuckles all white the last second clarity jump in rejoin the fight

His words snap you back and you realize the truth 2 more seconds and you'd lose more than just your mind

Stupid MF it's not worth it not worth your time

To live in a box one concrete his pine

You can make this right if you give it your best hundred shot

The life with her you want can still be written in your stars She's the  moon that shines brightly lighting your way

If you can control yourself to just stop, listen, and wait

Be patient just quit pushing so hard this isnt the time to force whats hopefully fate

Stupid MF just you wait expectations you have to let go and just let things unfold

These things you have to let grow it takes time this you know

Failure not an option I can live with this time

I have to try harder if i want her by my side

If things work out it will be a happy fulfilled life

I'll always be WINNING! as future days pass us by