The A Student
Broken dreams, shattered heart
"Reach for the stars," they said
But how could she when there were rules to follow?
Order. Obedience.
They told her it was for her own good.
Their dreams were her dreams.
There is no such thing as "my will, my dream."
Stupid. Selfish.
Everyone looked at her, called her a perfectionist
But how could she be anything less
If that's what they made her to be?
Fractured. Frightened.
Set on such a high pedestal
That when she fell, she didn't just fall. No,
She crashed with all that force and pressure upon her weakened shoulders.
Light-headed. Lonesome.
Yet somewhere, deep down, she wonders:
Isn't this what I want? Don't I want to be perfect in every way?
She doesn't know what she wants, or where she's heading.
Exhausted. Embarrassed.
Boldly, she takes on the "A student" persona.
Secretly, she wishes she didn't have to.
I wish I didn't have to.
Annoying. Agonizing.