Alone I sit drowning in my pain

Dark negative thoughts overflow my brain

These feelings unwanted I did not want this fight

Now I sit and question if I can make it through the night

No order or structure my life is now a lie

So many times I break and cry to the point I'd rather die

I don't want to give up so this fight carries on

I do not want those to hurt if I'm gone

So happiness ill pretend I forget last time it was real

Maybe just maybe someone will understand how i feel.

Jaelen Johnston 1-7-15