Heart beating through transparent skin

Eyes bulging out of a large head

It’s too big for my body

Tiny feet and hands

Looking for a thumb to latch onto

Shivering and exposed

Innocent and vulnerable

 

My heart is growing stronger now

Eyes have sunken into their sockets

The once large head is now covered in platinum blonde curls

Tiny hands are covered in baby fat

My feet are no different

Carefree and Happy

Unsuspecting and Faithful

 

The heart is beating faster now

Pupils in brown eyes are dilating

A brain is contained in a thick skull but I disregard it

My hands are reaching out for someone

Feet carry me towards them

In love and Free

Falling and Trusting

 

My heart is nothing now

My eyes are dull

My brain is working hard to create emotion, it doesn’t come

My hands are shaking

My feet are too weak to hold the body that is growing thinner itself

Questioning and Unsure

Broken and Bare

Shivering and Exposed

Innocent and Vulnerable

 

Why did I follow my heart?

It can’t think as the brain does

How can you sit there,

Calling love inanimate

When the pain hurts so much

That after you lose it

You would rather die

Than take another breath

For fear that your whole existence might shatter?

 

This is me now

I am nothing but a child

Learning how to cope with loves first heartbreak

I am back to a state of knowing nothing

My views are warped

My ideas have changed

Everything that falls breaks

Why didn’t I expect it?

 

It’s time that I remove the mask

The mask that covers everything I am 

Like a filter, it hides what I truly am 

It's paper mâché mask

One that I so easily could have ripped off

But I chose not to for fear that “me” wasn’t good enough

 

Without the mask

I am beginning to see again

My hands have begun writing again

My feet have begun carrying me

My brain can finally see clearly

It tells me every day

 

I am beautiful

I am strong

I am smart

I am unique

I am “me”

 

And “me” is always enough.