
Sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for not wanting to talk
I’m sorry for being tired all the time
I’m sorry for being distant
I’m sorry for snapping at you without warning
I’m sorry for being upset all the time
I’m sorry for my short temper
I’m just…
Sorry
I’m sorry that I spend seven hours a day in school
and then three hours at work right after school
and then hours at home doing homework
and stressing about the days that have yet to come
dreading each second that passes by because I know
that it is one second closer to the cycle starting all over again
I’m sorry that I get worked up about stupid shit
I’m sorry that I cant sleep at night because I worry too much about my future
and about our relationship
and if I did turn in that essay into turnitin.com
or if I did round to the nearest tenth when determining my sig figs in chemistry
or if I did read through and remember every single detail from Vonnegut
I’m sorry that my anxiety has become a burden to you
I’m sorry that I feel that at any moment I could just break down and cry
I’m sorry that you have to deal with my emotional roller coasters
I’m sorry that I am pushing you away
I’m sorry that I am not the same girl you fell in love with 11 months ago
I’m sorry that this time is changing who I am
I’m sorry that the distance that has yet to come between us is already pulling us apart
I’m sorry that I mumble when I say I love you
I’m sorry that I dont have the perfect body
I’m sorry that I don't look like those girls in the photos you keep locked away on your phone
I’m sorry that I am not photoshopped to perfection
I’m sorry that I can't give you the skinny body with big boobs and a big ass that you look for online
I’m sorry that I get over protective with little things
I’m sorry that I get jealous all the time
I’m sorry that I am having a hard time trusting you right now
I’m sorry that I am so used to having these sort of relationships fail
I’m sorry that I am just trying to protect myself from getting hurt again
I’m sorry that often times I feel that I am still alone
after all
being alone is all that I have ever known
I’m sorry that I am used to crying myself to sleep every night
I’m sorry that I am used to the comfort of my own hugs because no one else is there to do it for me
I’m sorry that I hide my feelings from everyone because I am so used to people saying that no one cares about how I feel and what is wrong with me
I’m sorry that I feel alone
like I have no one to talk to
I’m sorry that I am the outcast
I’m sorry that I am just your shadow and don't fit in with the people you hang out with
I’m sorry that my life is filled with disappointment
I’m sorry that I can’t see the silver lining
that you so desperately try to point out in this dark cloud that has been casted over my life
I’m sorry that all I see is black
I’m sorry that I can’t feel anything but pain and grief
I’m just…
Sorry
I’m sorry that I am
Garbage
Rejected
Alone
Cheated on
Invisible
Empty
Lost
Abandoned