She's Me
No one would really expect the loud girl with the strange giggle and big smile could be hurting like this
Could be wanting to cut into the bare skin that taunts her to do it
Screams and begs for her to let it all out
They couldn't imagine her self hate, dying wish
20 years for nothing
because she was raised in the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong people
She wants to slit her wrists and bleed out, handful of pills down her throat. She wants someone to care because it feels like nobody does. And instead of being numb, she's just sad
She's so fucking sad
And she's in so much pain that never ends. It's always there
And when she says she wants to kill herself. She means it, so very bad. But because it comes off her tongue so easily, no one takes it seriously.
No one would ever take her seriously, but she's use to that
She's used to being nothing important, so use to being pushed aside
She's used to not being looked at twice, no words from others saying she's pretty or cool or anything good
She is just the bad, she's the negative and she's hurting
And it is all so painful
Living is painful
And she's mad at the world
And she's mad at her parents
And she's mad at herself
But really, that anger is just deep sadness. She's so sad
And it never ends
She asks, but it never does. Because nothing can ever go right, she can't do anything right. She fucks everything right and good just by breathing air.
She didn't ask to live, she didn't ask for the pain.
She was brought into the world through unfortunate circumstances that will forever scar her heart and soul.
But no one would ever suspect anything wrong.
But no one would ever suspect anything wrong.
With the loud girl who has a strange laugh and big smile