Dear me,

I need to believe that I am more than what people make me out to be. I need to see that who I want to be and who I need to be can be two different things. Yes, you strive to be many things, but why do I still feel like something is missing in me! I guess I have to go back to the beginning.

See before I met ‘SHE’ the one that can’t be named, I was all for family. I knew only what was shown by this so called ‘family’, but after meeting ‘she’ I learned that there was more to life that can be seen. I missed so many things and before I knew it you forgot how to be. You get me? You see before the ‘she’ everything was about hostility on who I must be! Because in my family, to be a ‘she’ means to love a ‘he’. God created Adam and Eve, and God created the ‘she’ who is not meant for me. Why would life make a ‘she’ who is so meant for me, but all for ‘he’?

Now, I get it and I don’t get it because my family raised me to love everybody, yet they laugh at those much like me! A person who can be many things, but falls into the abyss of being a nobody. All because of a sting of a bee; that bee to me was a ‘she’. She could be a ‘he’, but there are no feelings within me for a ‘he’ even if he is much like me.

Now me! In order to feel more than what the family has implanted in me – go to ‘she’ who is not meant for me! Although, ‘he’ could be everything like me that she could see in me, the difference is… I’m a she and he is a ‘he’ that she sees and that’s how it should be. What you need to understand is that she wants to see all that you can be, even if your family can’t see who you’re really meant to be. That’s why this is a ‘she’ you must love like family because she is the ‘she’ who teaches you to be who you want to be and what you can be even if they are two different things.  

Love,

Me!