Ahhh!! Too much noise around me. Excessively loud blarings of words surround me. Conversations tormenting. Violently killing. It hurts ... It hurts so bad ... Tearing me apart , I feel so sad. Those shattered eyes, staring me down. Judging me with their hateful frowns. It hurts ... It hurts so bad ... Tearing me apart , I feel so sad. Tears rushing from my eyes, damn those shattered eyes. Looking me up and down like I'm telling the lies ... It's not! I swear its not me. I'm sorry, I didnt mean to, I swear. But you judge me like you've never been there. Been down that road, where you're all alone, driving slow through a cold cruel world. Where no one sees the world as you do , only hate, reject, and ridicule. Call you crazy and envy you .... why? It hurts ... It hurts so bad ... Tearing me apart, I feel so sad. Those shattered eyes, damn those shattered eyes. Making it seem necessary for me to disguise. Disguise myself, heart, soul, and mind. Not realizing I'm special, unique, one of a kind. Just trying to peer at the positives, but negatives seem to blind. Blinding me from letting me shine. I just wish that people can be calm, cool, and ok with each other. No matter how short, tall, ugly, cute, fat, small, but love one another. Instead we judge, and seem to cover. Cover our emotions and feelings with lies. Lies that fall from our minds and seep through our eyes. I just wish this pain would go away. Accept me for who I am. Until then, I continue to feel so much sorrow and so much pain. Looking outside my window pane gazing at the rain. This hurts ... This hurts so bad ... Tearing me apart , I feel soo sad. Those shattered eyes ..........those shattered.