Searching for Love
I thought I loved him once
I thought he was the perfect one
The man who marched his men into battle
Who did not leave them out like cattle
The one who showed bravery
In the face of certain death
One who could care less about the odds
And cared more about his men
Instead, he ran
He was a lot lesser of a man
He couldn't care less who got slain in his wake
He was a phony and a fake
How could I ever love a man
Who was such a coward
That he ran
I looked at him with shame on my face
I wondered how I could ever have fallen
for the likes of him
I did, though I fell for him
My love for him apparently unrequited
For if he loved me he would have stayed
And fought in my honor
Since he did not
I was left for those who conquered
To pillage and plunder
For their own needs and selfish ways
By the time I made my way around to the leader
I had been thoroughly enjoyed many times
So many times
I thought it could never get worse
The man who lead
Decided to take me as his Wed
He was a crass and cruel man
But I gladly went to his bed
It meant no more other men
And for that I was grateful
I slowly fell for him
I knew what love could do to a person
So I fought my heart, tooth, and nail
And when I finally said those three words
I love you
I saw his eyes darken
I did not know what to make of it
I bent over
assuming the position of punishment
Waiting to feel his belt
Instead, I felt his arms go around me
And pull me into his chest
He buried his head in my hair
And he says the four words
I have been searching for my whole life
I love you too
Then we head to his bed
and make love till morning
I finally found love