Oh no... I feel it creeping up again, the sad thoughts and troubling memories that haunt my dreams at night. What can I do to help myself? Is there an answer for such a useless human like me?                                                                                                                                                            I bet no one will care if I just end it all and go "up there". Constantly thinking about what happens after life and if it is better then now. What is that? Robin Williams? Suicide? One of my childhood favorites died because of depression?                                                                                                    But it can't be! He was so nice and funny! I can't believe it. Maybe it is true that behind every laugh there are three tears.                                                                                                                                                                    Poor soul reading this if you ever have the urge to disappear remember the people around you that will be affected. Remember all the happy and good memories that you've come across. Remember that you are loved special soul and you are NEVER alone.                                                                   Rest In Peace to Mr. Robin Williams and funny and talented soul that won't be forgotten.