I saw it all...

 

When you thought that 

A simple "hello"

Was the front page 

of a novel

 

Thinking 

how

it was easy to

make friends.

 

You became the voice 

in your

own head 

which was depicted 

as a wild imagination.

 

And even, through your 

innocence...

You gave enough

to the world 

that they said 

"Thank you"

 

Hugged you with 

the smile of a new 

partner. 

But those, unfortunately... 

Were the dreams of the

night before; 

which was 

really why 

your smile

was still there

 

Remember when 

the world wanted us.

We had medals for keeping up 

with everyone else.

 

And

Since we were the losers,

we wore our hearts out

showing everyone

that we could get over anything;

 

We were strong!

 

Had the smile

That can turn anything brighter;

Giving us advantages;

 

With our hands as weapons

And our blood 

As ammunition

To put war on the paper

for tomorrow,

since we learned 

that yesterday was

just an image

Set

on replay

Thinking to ourselves

"It'll be gone soon"

 

But, 

the brightness vanished; 

the debris caught

Inside your eyes

 

Blinding you 

from the future

that you had planned 

to conquer;

 

Then everything

crumbled 

like the paper from every student 

at school who expected a perfect

score

But was disappointed 

by the last wrong answer

Us

 

We escaped

the halls

that contained enough

hate

to define

how talented we were.

 

We practiced 

every day at school

for the show that 

we would attend afterward.

 

Our attraction:

The Bruises on our limbs

 

Covered by our biggest talent

Lies.

Judged by the parents 

whose idea of a first aid-kit

Was 

To ignore

Or

"Just turn the other cheek"

 

So we listened 

and were there for it all

 

The next day

I told you: 

if the world could help us 

it would, 

you just have to put in 

a little time 

and if we become soil

don't let them plant the wrong seed...

So with my veins 

I patched a heart 

in your jacket

To re-establish 

the hope 

for the world 

That I had in 

my hands

Though 

I could feel it slip through 

as if liquid

Through a vessel

Feeling

Dissatisfaction

And no 

not for 

my use of words 

but by the bystanders 

who detached their ears

And held them 

far enough to mute 

Your pain

 

Leaving us 

alone for our minds to

innovate

our future

with accumulate rage...

 

Remember, 

Sitting there at night 

thinking of people 

who we would find 

gorgeous.

 

Naming them

as if

telling a fictional 

Disney story

that was never took 

upon the world; 

but rather 

crushed it 

as if not worth 

a single stare 

and now, 

we are residue.

 

I Remember 

those days...

Seeing you lying 

on the bed 

trembling with fear 

made by the carved words 

on both your cheeks;

With 

the tape on 

your mouth

Keeping you 

From amplifying 

The words.

"We are free"...

 

But the clouds covered

the ray of light

 

Our homes mutated into asylums

 

And eventually 

we discovered 

that school was the wrong escape.

 

Remember 

realizing

to rather keep 

ourselves behind a curtain

than behind the 

rest of class 

because our cheeks 

were so tired 

of taking turns

to listen to every word

from the mouth 

of the students blaming us 

for the red light 

that stopped them 

from seeing perfection 

all around

or at least 

what the world called 

The latest tag.

 

And after standing up 

For the both of us, 

I saw the gaze in your eyes 

Built with nostalgia 

of the time when this was 

just the past 

and never ought to be 

a recorded chapter 

in our book.

 

And when I noticed you were gone...

I missed you like the plants 

miss the sun 

at night;

 

My last breath was a scream

through an amplifier 

trying to reach for the way

into your head

but I failed

like a surgeon 

Who couldn't 

cut away

pain.

 

Your eyes became dim . . . 

The color sucked 

by the ideas 

in your head

that said 

it would get better;

 

But we just wasted time.

And now 

I miss you...

 

But 

I don't think you 

Felt the same way

 

You only said

I'll see you 

Soon Since

You were too

Busy hearing everyone else on 

a Bluetooth Signal

 

Locking me away

Like Alzheimer's   

drowning what once

were echoes 

in your brain.

 

Putting the past

on a loop

of mistakes

while you 

welcome the future 

with blank stares...

 

And now...

I'm just...

your shadow.