Depression is overly romanticized

Young adult novels have the annoying habit of

Portraying it as the skinny white girl who cries on her couch

Before prince charming swoops her away

And shes cured
 

Real depression is much uglier
 

It is lying in your bed in complete disgust

because its been 3 days since your last shower

Yet somehow

The 20 foot walk to your shower

Seems miles away

And the simple task

Feels like an impossible challenge

 

It is feeling so many emotions at once that your head spins

Where you can be joyful and enraged and broken and loved

And then suddenly there is

Nothing At All

And it kind of feels like falling

But you don't fear the impact

You almost

Want it to happen

 

And you don't feel real anymore

You feel like a

Fake

The not real version of you and when you look down at your hands

They are not yours

And the face in the mirror is unfamiliar

 

Depression is the voice inside your head

the monster under the bed

the nagging feeling that you'd be better off dead