Rainstorms
I dont romanticize the rainstorms anymore
I dont romanticize those damned nights
Where im crying on my dirty floor
And im shaking from panic
As the monsters in my mind
Run around seeming manic
I cant romanticize my broken pieces
Because they arent anymore beautiful
Than as harmful as this disease is
This pain that i have caused myself
Is not a mural on a stony wall
It has always been a cry for help
And in this cry i always seem to plea
Clutching my pillow, the monsters
Will hear it and finally let me be
You cant romanticize something deadly
And even though they always find
I hold myself and hum the melody
To quiet my loud and dark mind