Everything slipping away

I face uncertainty

Question marks over my future

Got me pondering, over thinking

Just help me understand

Where I am headed

I got no clue about anything right now

I’m just trying to escape

I try to smile, but negativity is chasing me

I try to stay confident, but it seems like the glass is shattered

If you can still hear me

Listen to my words

Before I drown in a sea of my own sorrow

I’m talking about eternity

Effortlessly

Potentially

It seems like no matter what I do

I can’t break the cycle

I’m running

I’m walking

Limping

It’s breaking

Snap

Gingerbread house falls down

I’m just trying to breath and stop myself from falling down

You ever felt like you wanna disappear?

It may be over something small

But I get that a feeling a lot now

I don’t know

I feel just like Holden

I’m trying to hang on

But my grip loosens each second

I can’t seem to find my way

And I know that’s okay

But let’s flip the perspective

What if being lost is okay?

I admit I am broken

I know that

I got a broken heart, and it feels like that everyday

I gotta smile

I gotta hang on

That’s the point right?

So why is it so hard?

And isn’t just as hard as you make it?

Still though, I don’t feel that good

So how to feel good?

Smile, talk to people?

Come on dude, wake up

This isn’t rocket science

I know but it just seems like no matter what I do

I’m not reaching where I want to be

I’m striving

I’m pushing

But I’m simply not there yet

I don’t have expectations

They are the death of man and woman

Yet we all have them subconsciously though

I don’t even know

I’m having a conversation with myself

Trying to reach where I want to go

I know I can go further

I know that  I can do better

In all areas of my life

I don’t want to waste time

I want to finish all my homework

I want to have good grades

I want to be myself again

That’s all I’m asking

It just seems like no matter what I do

I am not being able to reach that point