He was utterly toxic to me and my well-being

But, he never hit me or yelled and we hardly disagreed

We did hard dugs together

I was attached to him like a tether

I loved him, apart of me still does

He always took care of me when I couldn't function because of a high or a buzz

He made me feel loved

I literally think about him being in prison every day

I can't keep my anger or tears at bay

It doesn't matter what I do or say 

I can''t get him out

No amount of screams, tears or shouts

At the age of sixteen, I'm in love with a grown man who assisted a murderer

I should let him go, but I can't and I don't know if I want to

He is consuming me like a poison