I’ve come to conclude that not everything exist,

The love from the books we read doesn’t exist,

At least not for me,

Instead life is like a battlefield,

When one battle ends you have to be prepared for the next one to come,

Frankly I’ve grown tired of it,

Or maybe I’ve just always been tired,

maybe I’m just scared or lazy,

Or I just don’t know how to handle things,

Point is this is not what I wanted,

What I expected,

Should I be shunned for envying others because they always get a happy ending?,

Maybe it’s me,

Something I’m doing wrong,

Wouldn’t it just be great to be able to go back and change a mistake for the better,

Like in an equation,

Lets use y= mx+b,

The b represents the initial action,

While the m represents the change,

That change can be anything you want for any situation at any point in time,

But like most things they come with consequences,

Yes,this is the part when you say it’s lose lose situation,

See in real life there is no m,

There is only the b and the y,

And nine times out of ten I’m always asking “y”,

As I get older,

I’m slowly learn to be okay with that,

because with a bad beginning always comes a terrible end.

 

~Jamilah El-Amin