Deep, dark, desperate days

 

Moments pass slow and dreary 

 

Repetitive runs, memory replays

 

Consciousness has never been so scary

 

Nights last longer than they're supposed to 

 

We toss and turn in bed 

 

Sad, fearful, and angry combinations

 

Inner voices scream through our head

 

We beg for air, we drown in pain

 

This aching never stops

 

Misunderstood and failing to abstain

 

Drugs taken 'til we drop

 

Awake in agony, life fails to get easier

 

Something is wrong with us

 

Misery levels are reaching excelsior

 

We are completely lost

 

Days and nights blend together

 

Darkness takes over sunlight

 

Is it worth living like this forever-

 

When nothing is going right?

 

What's the point, why am I here

 

These questions in our head

 

Imbalanced and sad, but no longer in fear

 

No longer in constant dread

 

It doesn't get easier, it doesn't get better

 

We keep telling ourselves

 

No one understands this pain we feel

 

And no one can really help

 

Used to the sadness, expecting nothing more

 

Wake, suffer, sleep

 

Unconscious is all we strive for

 

Depressed and obsolete 

 

But I won't accept it, I will not let it be 

 

These problems within myself 

 

Life cannot be this depressing, 

 

I need to get some help

 

Little hope, little care, little desire at all

 

But the little I have, I will use

 

I will not continue to fall prey 

 

-To this constant pain, this constant abuse 

 

I refuse to live this like anymore 

 

I will push forward despite it all

 

There has to be a better way 

 

Another life unknown, not impossible 

 

I will allow for any guidance, 

 

any help of any kind 

 

Belief in a fighting chance

 

refuse to live a colorful life blind 

 

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