Oh Mother If Only You Knew and Oh Father If You Had Only Stayed
Oh Mother
If only you knew how it feels when sharpen your knife on the flesh of my heart
If you would hear the silent screams I cry in the midnight
If only you knew that you're not alone in the ship of weary
Oh Mother
If you could only see the scattered decay of what used to be "your little girl"
If you would only realize I've shed the skin of optimism and devoured anew
I've been masked as an aching child who's been used
Oh Mother
You try yet you fail
You pray yet you report old habits
Oh Father
If you had only stayed you would love me once again
If you had only stayed I wouldn't be fucked up enough to fall in the blackhole of depression and anxiety
If you had only stayed I would love myself and wouldnt question what's missing
Oh Father
If you could only see the inflicted cuts upon the arms that once tried to embrace you
Yet you were callous coward
A callous coward who divided from a wife scorn and 3 children adrift
Oh but Father
If you had only stayed the bruises you set upon my infantile flesh would only grow
They'd be the ones devouring me and creating a darker specie that no man could figure
If you had only stayed I would see no God
My Dear Mother and Father
Your lack of knowledge has morphed me into the young woman I am today
Our deaf quarrels
Your coward behavior
They've shown me how to be firm spirited
To push through every footing and not give into the cunning voice of the mean hearted
And most of all that love should be utterly unconditional
Love should bursts through the barriers of the utmost uncomfort
I despised you so much I learned to love you