if it’s a problem for you

(although i don’t completely understand why,

as i’ve agreed to abide by your

relationship expectations)

we can stop seeing each other

you’re projecting-

that’s how you would handle it,

by running,

by escaping the situation

but we are not the same

we are both scared

it’s not just you

i don’t want you to feel this way

and i don’t want to feel this way

you will have to trust me

a horrifying concept for both of us

and eventually we will leave each other

but

not today

and that’s okay, it’s the merit of the experience

if you’re looking for someone to spend your life with,

i mean for you to mean

the

rest

of

your

life

that’s not me

but i want to be with you

while it is working

you and i

want different things and

we see the world differently

but that doesn’t mean

we can’t work

for now

so what do you want?

to go to sleep and wake up

four months from now

with all the answers in front of you?

you’d miss so much

figure it out and

let me know

i’m here if you want

for now