In my friends eyes,

I'm insane and have no shame,

Bold and gets what I want

In my family's eyes,

Im still insane with no shame

But I'm more quite and shy

However no one knows 

That behind the locked doors

I'm anything but fine

Behind the thin walls

I re-evaluate and question my life

No one knows about the blades 

  hidden my stuff bear

Nor do they know about the small, 

  red book filled with the thoughts I 

  never shared

Or my small, white book of lies

That I use to try to see the positive thing in my life

And when I have my earphones on,

It's to silence the voices yelling in my 

  head

Because even though I decided to 

  live,

I sometimes listen to the voices 

  saying I'm better off dead