No Closure
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I didn’t know what to do
when I was going though this pain.
I thought it would get better,
But my heart was framed.
Looking in your eyes,
I saw a burining flame.
I saw the hurt, the anger
I saw the pain behind.
Why was I the only one put through this?
Was I the child you loved the least?
You’ve scarred me for life…
And I can’t trust easily.
Was this your plan for my life, O Lord?
Are my struggles for your glory?
I can’t understand my past
without any closure.
Mama, why did you never stop him?
Didn’t you love me the same?..
Why was I the chosen one
To walk along the broken road?
Am I the unloved one?
My plan was to make him happy
so the pain would fade away,
But instead it made the beating stay
A. Little. Longer.
I had always wanted to be daddy’s little girl
I thought this was just a faze,
Before I’d become his world
But this was just a fantasy.
In reality,
Id always be the target.
The bullseye was to see me cry;
The hurt behind my eyes.
Was this your plan for my life, O Lord?
Are my struggles for your glory?
I can’t understand my past
without any closure.
Looking back I know
I should have said something
But I was young and scared.
I loved him,
Even though I never saw his love.
I tried to face my fears head on.
I thought that it would make me strong,
But instead it made me weaker
In my heart.
No closure.
3 years later.
Still no answer.
When will the nightmare cease?