Distaste first comes to mind, like eating a bad apple.
Then comes the scarlet fury of rage,
Engulfing everything she embodies.
Thoughts. Angry and sad thoughts overwhelming the mind
Until all has consumed who she is.
She know longer knows 
Or maybe she never knew and that dissatisfies her the most.
Ignored by family, friends, herself. 
She becomes eaten alive by the demons in her mind.