New Year's Day

I am not going to lie, I am someone who usually thinks New Year's resolutions are dumb,

Because why is it that we wait for the calendar to flip to try and change where we come from?

Like I said, this is typically how I feel about the situation, for some reason this year feels strange,

Because I think I finally needed something to make me want to change.

I have mentioned this before, but for the past couple of months I have not been feeling like me,

And I think having a fresh start for the new year will help me to become who I want to be.  

For the most part, a lot of my goals this year are taking care of me and learning to set boundaries,

And I think a lot of it is learning to let go of the past and realize that all of the events from the past are just memories.

It hasn't even been that long, but I am already starting to feel good once again,

And I wish I had allowed myself to try to heal back then.

I am finally learning to look forward to what I want, while currently accepting the way that things are,

And I am finally starting to heal from my past, and I am learning to accept all of my scars.

One of the main things that I want to accomplish this year is truly being happy with who I am,

And learning to love myself, and understanding that if no one else likes me, it is not up to me to give a damn.

For a long time now, I have always been trying to go after and achieve the same goals,

And I am finally starting to take my power back, and realize that all of these things are under my control.

The biggest thing that I want to bring into the new year is realizing that I only need me, and that I don't need to make anyone else feel good,

Because I always do it for them, but they don't return the favor in the ways that they should.

I realized that with working on my goals and taking care of me, everything else will fall into place,

And that if these things were meant for me, then there is no reason for there to be a chase.

I have always believed that everything happens for a reason, and in time, what is meant for me will come,

Because I am finally learning to accept who I am, and march to the beat of my own drum.

I would like to say that in the next 365 days there is going to be a different girl sitting here,

So with that being said, I feel obligated to say "Happy New Year!" 

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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