Never Dark Enough
It will never match the shade of your thoughts
Or the way that you see yourself
Make the word 'damaged' enter their minds when they see you
Make them visibly investigate your psychological turmoil
Even if you have to write the words on your skin
Write all over your pale white face with black ink
Make it impossible to avoid what has been left unseen for so long 
The words that you don't want to speak need to be said
Or at least seen, so that they can react and make it all go away
The secrecy, the questions and suggestions
The suttle hints and wayward actions
I can not handel the pressure of being me
As I stand here at the edge of liberty and imprisonment
I may just jump off the bridge entirely to avoid the decision
I am not what they see me as or as I see myself
I walk around without an identity because I am lost 
As lost as one psychologically can be while still somewhat sane
At least, this is what I think of myself as being 
This lost person, who statistically should be okay 
Based off of familial ties, income, and grade point average 
But is that really all that I am and all that they see me as?
I don't know how I should view myself, but right now all I see is Hate.