You may not have died today,

But it feels like it

Because to me you did.

I have done everything

To make your life better

Even hid all the pain

You caused me.

You threatened to kill yourself

On multiple occasions.

I kept talking you out of it.

You continued to attempt

And told me about it every time.

You pretend like it did not matter

And I kept trying to save you.

As you slowly pulled me down

Then pushed me away.

One day I snapped

And to me you became nothing.

I could help no more

I was soo emotionally drained

Almost forgetting how to smile and be happy.

How to feel and love

Without being hurts.

Even though you did not actually die

It felt like it to me

We no longer talk

And you are blocked

Out of my life for good.

My life is better

I am happy

And you are doing fine without me.