It was 2017 when we met,
I didn't know how much I needed you
unitil you left.

The first few months were hard for you,
You were surrounded by leeches.
I could only pull off a few.

The hardest part was when we moved,
I was scared you were gonna forget about me
the few months I let you loose

You had to get used to a new place alone,
It was hard seeing you 
And how much you've grown.

You turned into a man
I was still a girl,
I needed you to help me stand

When you moved back with us,
I felt something beyond joy.
I didn't take care of you and I lost your trust.

The joy crumbled the weekend you were hurt,
Then you were sent to a prison,
where you had to sleep on the dirt.

You got out and it wasn't any better, 
we traveled and you got sick.
Our options started getting slimmer,
we had to leave you with another stranger.

I wasn't able to see you in your last moments,
It was too painful to see you in that place.
Those thoughts were hard for me to be alone in.

Our mistake was leaving you twice,
We knew it was different without you.
It was everything but nice.

The mourning came a few weeks later,
I didn't understand why God would take you away.
My life started giving up on me,
it was my own traitor.

Still it's hard for me to stand alone,
I use your story to help me get through life.
With you, I was never alone.

Writing this makes my life anything but grim,
my love lives with you while you are at rest.
I ask for forgiveness every day,
because my love couldn't save him.