To My Dearests
For whom do I write?
See, there are many People,
And each will be referred to differently,
But overall the poem encompasses my Dearests.
To my family,
To whom, despite their efforts,
I am still the outsider;
The "different".
To the red-head,
Whom I trusted,
Who broke that trust
Who I hated to cry in front of,
But left me no choice;
Because of external forces.
To the first Friend I've had in a long time,
Whom I still trust,
For whom I would drop everything in a heartbeat,
Should she say something funny
To the Section Leader,
Whom I admire,
With whom I long to form a solid friendship
Who, often, would not realize the stress
She caused:
Always meaning well.
To Mine,
With whom I formed a relationship
On a vacation.
The one spark,
That led to three months of converstation,
How I long for that same relationship.
To the Twin,
With whom I can not be separated,
Whom I trust with secrets,
Whom I am sometimes scared of
Her power with words.
And to The Family
Oh how I wish you could answer
All the questions that are swirling, winding, tumbling
I had my chance,
In a dream once,
But never could figure out
What to say,
And how to say it,
Or where I was.
Oh how I wish you would answer,
But I don't dare ask,
Because I never want to see you cry.
Not again,
Enough is Enough,
And I cannot bear
Another period of crying, of unhappiness, of uncertainty.
But answers are important,
So I make them up.
Make them up in my poems.
An answer for each one of you.