Choking,

burning,

body retching,

stomach rejecting,

tears streaming,

thinking of what's been eaten.

Shivering,

shaking,

body quaking,

knees are aching,

hair hanging.

remembering measurements.

Retching,

clawing,

can't stop sobbing,

Mia's talking,

leaving me crawling,

and fingers push down my throat.

Losing,

gaining,

always weighing,

tape measuring,

scale stepping,

I just want it to be over.