Memories of Love and Pain
I look at you with memories flashing through my mind
Those days we used to smile and laugh
Those days we'd play on the slide
My mind shutters through the memories the one's you don't seem to remember
My mind pounds me with all the painful things you screamed at me
That day you left and packed your metephorical bags
Maybe if I could have come up with the right words to say
If I could have mustered up the courage to ask you to stay
Maybe you wouldn't have walked away
That dreadful summer day
Now I see you in the halls at school
You sometimes smile my way
You make polite little conversation
Don't you remember how we used to tell each other everything
Now we barely say anything past how have you been
Doesn't that tear you apart like it does me
Maybe it's best
Maybe it was meant to fall apart
It hurts more than any pain I've ever known
The words flash through my mind
I hear your voice inside
Those words they cut like knives in my vivid memory
Maybe if I told you how I really felt
Maybe if I screamed how much I truly care
Maybe if I told you I was so incredibly in love with you
Maybe you would have stayed
Would you have kissed me and said everything would be okay
Would you have moved my hair from my tear stained eyes
Your sweet lips I wanted to kiss
My brain was taken over by your beauty
My love for you anchored me down
I still love you even after all you said
Everytime I see you in the halls I remember that day you held my hand
You didn't mean anything by it, I know that but I felt my stomach rise
I felt like I could fly
Then you let go and I still felt your hand linger
I remember when we would play house when we were little
We didn't know that both of us being married was not supposed to happen
Not until your mom told us we couldn't play that way anymore
She told us we would get made fun of
We played in secret anyway
Do you not remeber the lingering hugs and how you looked in my eyes
Everytime we played that game you looked at me so intensly
Do you not remeber the time I told you I love you
You thought I was just being nice
You laughed it off and smiled a little
I looked down at the floor defeated
Do you not remember how I asked you to the dance
You smiled and told me yes
Do you not remember how you asked me to be your little experiment
To see if a kiss felt nice
You never kissed me but I wanted to so badly I melted from the thought
You told me you were kidding and I laughed at your joke
Inside I knew I was the punch line of everyone's inside joke
Do you not remember the night before we cuddled in your bed
We watched about a million movies as you played with my hair
You held my hand and held me close like any couple would
You smiled at me like anyone who was in love would do
I knew I was in love with you
Were you scared to admit it
Is that why you left
Today I had the courage
The courage to tell you the truth
I ran up to you and kissed your lips
I told you I'm in love with you