I can’t believe it’s been half a year already

I wish I could say I didn’t love you still after all this time

It would be a blessing to forget you

Or to be angry with you

Taking it out on you might ease my burden for a little while

But I can't, I won't, I wouldn't if I could

I don't want to season my life with spite

I won't intentionally harm you

I will not reinforce your self-inflicted woe

I will stay forever at a distance

Forever encouraging you to love thyself.

Instead I have another blessing

I will remember the touch of your heart

I will carry the weight of remembering

For both of us

And allow it to shape my soul in ways I cannot yet know.