Mansion
I am a mansion
with many rooms,
windows, walls,
doors and locks,
knobs, lights
and well-used brooms
to clean my messes,
make things alright,
or as right as I presume
I love to fill
my many rooms
with pictures, novels,
histories,
hopes and dreams
all brightly in bloom,
to clothe my house
in a layer of warmth
and pleasant memories
relume
but there are two rooms
in this mansion of mine
that empty still remain.
travelers come through
and leave their mark
but no one cares to stay.
so in my mansion,
these two rooms
are dusty, dark,
cold and empty,
waiting for
the passing gloom
to pass along.
so until then
I’ll close the doors to these
two rooms
I am a mansion
with many rooms
warm, bright,
comfortable, real
mostly pleasant,
save for the two
that coldly haunt me
with their emptiness
like the leftover scent of old
perfume
as travellers come
and pass by the doors
I don’t want to hope anymore.
at the same time
this chill without hope
might leave a deeper scar on my soul.
oh to find balance
between locked and open doors!
to find safety in the open
and peace in the locked!
I wish I’d find comfort
in these wide open doors,
but the dust left by travellers
hurts to see anymore.
or I wish I could solidly
slam and lock these doors
but it would contradict nature
to tear hope out of my soul.
so I’m stuck in between,
undecidedly in a twilight zone
trying to distract myself
by endlessly wandering my home,
hoping that somehow
these doors, on their own,
will simultaneously be
shut AND open,
and leave me alone