Darkness

It creeps in 

My greatest nightmare 

Yet it also brings me joy 

What is it about you

That gets me all worked up

One minute I feel like I’m floating on the highest and lightest of clouds 

Next it’s gone 

Replaced by grey heavy clouds

I wish I could pour my heart to you

I cannot

Even though you tell me you love me

I can never rely on the words you tell me

Can’t you see my insecurities 

I feel used by you sometimes 

Though I would like to believe otherwise 

Am I blinded by my feelings

Is what we share a mare dream 

That I have molded to make believe 

Do you love me out of sympathy 

Because it’s the right thing 

A thousand questions go unanswered 

And I will never be brave enough to ask 

Maybe because In doing so 

 I will lose you 

I’m afraid to lose you 

Because though you are my darkness 

You are also my light

You are my joy

My strength 

My happiness....