I love you 

so much

you were born and I 

loved you

so much 

you were clever and funny and I 

loved you

so much

i made you lunch and I helped you

when you were sick and I learned about

you and I did no many good things

but you aren't what I wanted

you wanted something else

you loved me

you didn't smile and laugh

you didn't shut up

we are all good

but not good enough

i still love you

and you love me too

it matters but it's also not the thing that matters

commit to care

or just show up