I locked you inside

And forbade you to leave

You were my demon

 

My friends and family don’t know about us

Our special bond

Our unwanted friendship

 

You came out of nowhere

Screwed me over

Told me what I felt was right

 

But I said no

Constantly

Thinking that I can change this

 

Why demon?

Why make me feel this way?

Why complicate my life?

 

You said “because I love you”

But I called bullshit

You obviously hated me

 

I’d cry

I’d stress

I’d fight

I’d panic

I’d think of ways out of this situation

 

But in the midst of my panic

You grabbed my hand and said: “It’s okay

Love will conquer”

 

That was the day I fell in love with you, Demon

The day I nearly kissed you

The day a weight lifted off my chest

 

The fear of my future disappeared

The fear of being unloved by everyone disappeared

The fear of not loving myself...disappeared

 

You are mine

And I am now yours, Demon

If I can still even call you that

 

I think it’s time I named you, Demon

You’re shadowy presence now a reflection of me; bright, new, and

“Gay”