The most precious bond is with your mother

You only have one and don't get another

But what happens when the bond isn't there?

Theres nothing but deep tension in the air

Every single thing in life that you do

Is never going to be good enough for you

I could be an angel with a halo and wings

To you I'll be devilish among other things

It's horrible to want to run away so bad

Do everything right but get treated so bad

In your eyes I'm just another young hoodrat

Always into trouble just doing this and that

In reality I'm really quite the opposite

Always focused an working on making it

It's like you had my whole life planned out

I obviously didn't make your vision without a doubt

It's so many things you just don't know

So many scars that I just don't show

Never being good enough takes a real toll

There's a flame that burns bright in my soul

All I've ever wanted from you

Is to be there and teach me what I should do

I wish just once I could make you proud

Maybe the pain in my head won't scream so loud

Theres a sharp pain that goes through my whole body when I see your face

Knowing all too well this shouldn't be the case

It covers my body when I do anything good

Then pierces my heart just when I didn't think it could

My happy moments aren't so sweet

They really feel like I am being beaten by a 2x4 piece of wood

Your words like splinters in my back, my legs, my arms, my head

Stop mommy please, I'm sorry

We're not suppose to be like this are we?

All I ever wanted was to make you proud

I scream out for you but I guess im not loud

enough for you to hear my words

I struggle through all the twists and turns

In the end I can never be mad

You've still provided the life I've had

So I'll silently sit here and let your actions beat me some more

Im almost old enough to walk out the door

Once I have left I hope you can see

The scars and pain you have given me

You pushed me away mom, you made me go

But I still love you more than you'll ever know