Lost...
I’m lost confused and all aspects of
romance, work, school and my mental health.. its all a big fucked up blur
my heart is unsure and my head is unstable
and where I go from here i have no clue
I love him I do but... I cant be with him right now and he dosn’t understand
but i cant hurt him and i cant leave.. its May all over again..
Im risking a friendship I cant stand to loose but Im not sure The relationship is even something i can fix right now .. I’m just...
Im stuck.. just stuck and theres nothing I can do but stay
Stay and wonder how it would be if I left
if I left and started over and ... but where you I be
In 2 complicated situations at the same time, possibly wondering why I even left
Wishing to go back but knowing I cant
I mean where do I go, Do i turn around or keep going?
Do I hurt him just to hurt myself or do I just hurt myself?
Do I take a chance with this big question mark or an even bigger question mark that used to be something more?
Do I... I mean... Should I..... Im thinking too much and thats never good..
You have these problems still overbearing you
when will you be ready... when will I?
oh finally we are here but it all coming back to me as Deja vu
Omg how you look at me just makes me weak in happiness
no no i cant... its to risky and what if .. what if I was just here when no one else was..
maybe this was never more then just what my heart wants me to think
its all a blur and i want to just see you clearly and ...
and what.. kiss ... yes that the only thing I’m sure i want is that one thing that really make it all fade into a sweet symphony
and now here we are back... Deja vu
I just want... a decision.... motivation but where is it
where is the road map through this maze called life
ohh I’m so far from where i started... but..
how can i even begin to fix what i fucked up and simpleminded things I started
if I’m not ok.. I’m not ok.. im not ok .. ok