Living Life
The way the time may go, The way the water flows
The way the sun shines in my eyes, Today I pray
That though the storm may rage
And though the times may change
These memories in my heart will always stay
Life is hard, harder than I'd thought it'd be
Not as smart as I thought I'd be
But I'm enjoying days I never thought I'd see
Doing my best to learn from my mistakes
Trying to figure out who I am, but my heart struggles in a world with so much hate
Yet, I refuse to keep letting the ignorant opinions of others be my truth
It's time for me to cease using my scars as an excuse not to move forward
And yeah at times the ocean of emotion inside me threatens to overflow
But it's then, that I take a moment to scream and laugh and cry and sing
and pour my heart out into notebook pages
Because my tears will dry
The wounds decorating my heart will heal
and the scars left behind will be my reminder to never give up
I just wanna live my life
But I'm scared
Scared to face the fact that I'm changing into someone the mirror hardly recognizes anymore
Scared to let down everyone who believed in me
How can I believe in me without them
Is it even possible forge my own path
But if that is the only way to make my dreams come true than what choice do I have
I cherish every good day that I have
Because when I'm at my worst
It's the memories of face consuming smiles and infectious laughs
Of happiness and love that get me through
Still I struggle trying to make the right choices
Doing my best to ignore those whispering doubt like voices
Sometimes it's a fight just to get out of bed each morning
But I do, I get through
Even though I'm faced with ever present fear that I won't
Because if I let fear hold me back I'd never get a chance to show the world
The beautiful person I know, one day
I can become
The way the time may go, The way the water flows,
The way the sun shines in my eyes, Today I pray,
That though the storm may rage
And though the times may change
These memories in my heart will always stay